:(

All they see is the smiles and the laughing part of me, why can't they look a little closer and see my cold and distant eyes that bear so many burdens someone my age shouldn't have?I'm starting to think I need help, but how?

Why does the past, always come back to haunt? Why now, just when I start feeling okay again?
Right this moment, I wish I could predict the future to find out what I'm holding on for.
God, please lead me to the right path.... :(